My explanation for losing it!

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 No wonder there are so many thoughts that roam around in our head but we never find words to express them into or a person to pour it in. Sometimes we just make peace with what makes us uncomfortable or we might just get habituated of it being a part of our lives. Eventually, everything gets managed on our own. 

I do wonder a lot of times on how do we make peace with something that bothers us to the core, do we forgive or just forget! A lot of times we do not even understand either of which have we opted to get over with it. Or do we just end what brings us that? All that I could observe by meeting a lot of people is that every person is structured in a different way. We do categorize people on them being understanding or non-understanding but we often fail to understand that every person had their own capacity to understand and own set of circumstances to understand on. Eventually everyone tries hard to deal with whatever that comes their way, fair enough because no one wants to get hurt or bothered.

I have been in instances where it was terribly tough to understand why would a certain situation come up, or how would things be the same with different structures surrounding them. What I failed to understand is I had only one vision to see at it, however the things happening were with someone else. And that's what  I would call as "Judging". We do judge people or situations based on what we understand but not based on what the other person understands, who actually is into it. Even after when we understand, we do not find courage to accept. Some of these occurrences might have direct or indirect effect on us. We might lose on it really bad, at least I did! No shame in accepting it. 

People do say that things take time and we adjust. But is that worth it? Making peace with something that we were most uncomfortable with! How funny is the human brain or emotions that let's us settle with something that we cannot accept at first, but just by being into it for too long we end up adjusting or forgetting! What if that was just not worth it or that it actually had a value that you couldn't give space to in your life. Strange, right? How do we still get over with it, and why? Isn't this a lie that you are making to yourself? Or, isn't this a lie that you are accepting for yourself? Just because it is too tough to step out of the comfort zone. Certain questions might never be answerable. 


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